Energy?!?

I felt so accomplished yesterday. It was payday so that meant getting checks putting them into the bank and then running errands. After the bank we went to Target and bought some stuff we needed. Then went to lunch at Five Guys which was funny because the guys yell in the back and Little Kevin would lean forward and scream back at them. It was awesome. After lunch it was time for Fred Meyers. Not everyone knows the store so let me school yah on it. Fred Meyers is Target, Ralphs (without the high prices), Zellers, Radio Shack and Lowes all together. The Guys and I did the grocery shopping and then they dropped me off at H&R Block so I could get our taxes done. After they unloaded they picked me up and I retrived Savannah from school.

That was yesterday - got a ton done and was able to have a great dinner with the fam.

Today though is another story. I didnt want to get out of bed, but I did. I fed the boy and then put him back to sleep. I am somewhat listening as Savannah cleans upstairs. I feel more stressed today because it is Cleaning Saturday. Kevin is still asleep. Oh how I wish for sleep but I am at that point where my body wants to sleep but my mind - she is awake.

I think I am going to go outside and clean Little K's wagon, maybe look into cutting the grass. It's Spring and we have people coming to visit.

Kevin's mom will be here the day after Little K's first birthday, she will be enjoying the party Saturday. My mom is going to come up in July I think. Kevin's Grandparents and my dad are coming up the end of August.

I want the house spotless. It's the neat freak in me, but I just dont have the energy.

But things are looking up. I owe the IRS around $800 which is better then what I owed them yesterday morning. The kids are healthy, I am staying as healthy as I can and the guys are being awesome at keeping everyone at bay. I am hoping we will have a new car by the end of August - fingers crossed - and we will be moving June/July 2012.

Last time I wrote on this blog was 6 days before my son was due. Wow what happened since. I posted a few things that I had put over on facebook but this - this is from me.

My son will be a year old in 22 days. He is starting to stand alone and has such a fabulous sense of humor. He was born April 13, 2010 weighing in at 12 pounds. I love him so much, I love him like I love my daughter - words cannot describe how much I love them. Anyway he is getting big. Doesn't seem that long but then again what do I know - I was unable to be with him for the first two months. That really screws with ones emotions, it makes you doubt yourself and feel helpless. I cannot see how people adopt babies - not feeling then grow inside or spending the first couple weeks cuddled in bed. Just there with each other.

My wound is healed, I have some of the nastiest scars. Then again I have an ass on my stomache. The kids laugh, kinda makes me feel better but not really. My hair has fallen out but its growing back nicely or at least I am told. My insides are wacked out. My abdominal wall isnt growing back together and my heart isnt healthy enough to do much of anything. I enjoy shopping and even that is limited.

But onto good things. My kids are healthy, I have an awesome support system. I am talking to my mom again and I started on my blog again. Now to continue it.

Let's cross our fingers and hope for fries!!